siao Siao MaNGaS FaNatic

sometimes i wonder.... if a friend or friends are for life ? i treat them for life.. but do i get the same in return? i really wonder.... sometimes... time can let you know and find out about someone, something... and most of the time.... it surprises you... this is purely coming out from what i feel and what i think... i can be nice, friendly... oh well... i'm complaining... i'm stressed.... stressed stressed stressed i'm going to die on the 28th feb... helppppp.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

honestly... why is it that money is always the problem that will hurt and harm all sorts of relationship... including friendship... i try to fix the god damn problem.. and it seems i had more coming up.. which only means one thing.. i'm leaving my hands off the matter... i'm stressed enough... and i'm getting all kinds of attitudes which is enough is enough....

there are times i think my life is pathetic... cos i'm always running out of money... cos i have to take care a lot of bills... like my broadband bill, my hp bills and la la la... my bro and sis are no way better than me oso... this is considered a big "M" problem in my family... we're not rich nor we're poor... we're like to outsiders, we look rich i think... my pt. of view, we're totally so STUCK right in the middle... cos at least we get to eat... to wear... and of course...we ought to be satisfied... but somehow deep down... we all know.. that's not going to be quite possible... cos humans are greedy and so are you and me... we're humans ! but then, when i think i fell into a bad patch... i looked at my dog, i feel so much happier... cos i got him with me... when i see him, my worries just pop out of my head, making me feel so much better... so... what i can say is... i love you MaoMao a.k.a mOmO... and i had someone i admired for ages... even ...

Happy CNY ! been terribly lazy and busy lately... thus the long gap in the posts... assessment is not so bad... both A n R are happy with it... haha if they are happy with it... i'm kinda satisfied... haha it's the hardest to get pass the both of them... so far we're cleared... but it meant bigger hopes will come with bigger n greater responsibilities and of course... doom is near if we do a lousy job... so bless me... New Year is so far cool... it's my year and my chihuahua's year haha... we're both "dogs" lah... angpao is usual, less than 100 bucks.. but is ok lah... get used liao... anyway... 80 or 90% of the paos are from my own flesh n blood parents... haha which is cool for me... haha... think i'm talking rubbish... actually thought of blogging abt something i meant to say.. but i've forgotten what izzit... bad memory lately... I'll be a year older this coming saturday... i'll be at a BBQ organised by my pri sch frenz, shld be bri...