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So my sis says I talk about KinKi too much... Yes, perhaps it's too much but that's what it is going on in my life at the moment I enjoy letting myself getting surrounded by KinKi and honestly speaking... there's nothing much exciting going on in my life at the moment Life is now work, go home, work again pretty much like that I do meet up with friends I do go out for movies and all and to be fair, people my age, I mean, close friends that I have... have similar lifestyles... we're pretty laid back ppl... okie lah, probably we're a bit lazy... but when you're turning 30 soon... (i have 2 years plus close to 3) not much things can excite you maybe... just maybe, I'll just announce to the world next year that I'm married when I come back from Japan... haha Yes I love Japan that much and Yes cos of Tsuyoshi, I really like Japanese more well... Masaki too lah... (just that he'll always be number 2?) hmmm Life is evolve around KinKi, my mangas, my books.....

Thought I should post this... it's written in chinese again.. and sorry, my story has only been translated half way... i promise to post it out soon... below is actually a comment based on the author's own comment... (one fanfic in whiteworld) who said that he/she (not sure of the author's gender..) wishes that Tsuyo to get married to a nice lady, not just any lady.. and he shld just probably leave the entertainment circle and live happily with her... something like that... i replied the following: 怎么说呢。。。 我其实也和葱葱一样，也希望他可以好好的结婚去。。 但我却不希望他为了结婚而结婚。。 他妈催婚催的很。。我真不希望他是为了他妈妈而去结的。。 如果是，那我到宁愿他保持现状好了。。 他和光一，到底是不是真的。。 估计我们也猜不透的。。。 明白的人自然明白。。。不是吗？ 我们或许能做的。。。就是祈祷，保佑，希望。。 他们两人能得到幸福， 快快乐乐的就好了。。。 毕竟，有的时候，只有当事人才能自己解决。。。 结铃还须系铃人啊。。。 自私一点的话， 我倒是希望他和光一好了。。。 虽然路不好走。。 但相爱的两人一定可以克服的。。。 我说的有些矛盾。。。 对不起。。 I said that, i do hope for tsuyo to get married.. but i do not wish for him to get married for the sake of getting married, cos his mum has been chasing him or pushing him, giving him pressure... ...

很多时候，我很想装傻 很多时候，我很想去爱 很多时候，我很想逃避 很多时候，我想很多事 很多时候，我希望时间停止 很多时候，我希望重头来过 好比现在。。。 另。。 前天的演出。。。知道他不舒服， 我很担心 但我知道，有一个人会好好的照顾他 那就够了。。。 要健健康康的啊。。 刚！

I went to Kinokuniya this afternoon... Bloody hot day (since when it's not hot these days =_=) Okie main point, to help my sista collect her mags, to buy my mangas So i got a bit outta control, bought myself a new graphic novel, then there's barefout (cos got my darling), plenty of mangas (mainly my bro's) the damage was SGD 158.oo but after 20% discount the damage was SGD 128.oo i think i bumped into Esther too, she was meeting her frens. okie what else, i managed to get TV Guide from books.com.tw and now that web's outta stock again I am lucky after all.. phew~ for the first time this year, they are on cover, and in SG, it's outta stock it sounds like a joke but within 15 mins, that mag's outta stock i got pissed, angry, disappointed, within seconds tried ways and means to find, and in the end found it at books.com.tw and at first, cannot buy somemore, all i can do was to "checked" and wait, then they sent me an email, said can order so i quickly pre...

Why is it that... everytime when i listen to Tsuyo's DEVIL... I will cry... Tears will just flow out naturally I feel that I can understand his feelings when he sang this song... I know he cried when he sang this song during his [Si] con... 为何相爱的人总不能在一起。。。 为何一定要伤害他们，你们才会甘心。。。 我恨你们！恨你们伤害了苦苦相恋的他们！ 看到他们痛苦，你们很高兴是吗？！ 不要问我 why 我只是又突然想把困在心里的话说出来而已 Yes, nowadays my thoughts has 80% or more to do with KinKi... they heal my spirit they heal my heart they heal my soul it is their love, their songs, their music that gives me courage that makes me still believe that there's something, perhaps someone i can wait upon in the future if you do not understand why it's because you do not understand them you probably do not understand me as well no one perhaps really did i never really explain why maybe one day if you ask me i might tell you why maybe just maybe i believe none of my friends truly understand the reason why i love KinKi it's also because no one ask me anyway people who love ...

So.. finally.. dunno after how long... KinKi Kids's on the cover of Tv Guide! Will be popping over to Kino to buy tomorrow~ Happy~ i saw the scans from momo got a bit pissed cos that fukakyo, sat so close to kochan... tsktsk wait tsuyo angry then he know.... hmpf yes, it's the kkl soul in me that is typing this... cos to me... KK will always be KKL~

Money has been paid A total damage of $160 but it's worth every single cent of my money Because I truly love them My Japanese may not be good But I'll try my best to understand it For Tsuyoshi For Koichi For KinKi Kids My one and only love

I am bloody excited & happy at the moment cos my sista just told me that our dear KinKi Kids KinKi you concert will be releasing DVDs - 4 in a set! for first press - 10k yen for normal - 9k yen jap press btw i'm getting the limited first press yes, even though it' s jap press cos i dun care i'm afraid the HK press won't be out so must get it first, to ease my panic, and worry to view the Dvd pics - go her blog or go to JE official web... i'm too excited now haha this is the best news so far this mth (other then the news of my dear tsuyo releasing a new single)

I just realise something, Tegoshi wore the same scarf as Kochan in the latest SDK Kochan wore it last year for SDK (xMas time) here's the video.

Happy 24th Birthday to my blooder.. i mean brother~ Best Wishes hor You have 1 week to choose your bday present.

Blogger went bonkers again i think... Anyway, when to watch UP with Esther & Jeannie yesterday.. we went to Suntec to catch it, i was almost late... darn i forgot abt the fact that bugis will be packed thus the traffic jam thank goodness i made it. Movie was pretty good! love it! then we went to toy & comic convention, blythe was there, nintendo was there, lego, tokidoki, blah blah blah took some pics but camera is now with my bro? so i have not upload the pics yet bumped into Tracy, Rodney, Malva at suntec lolx oh yes, TV guide's cover will be KinKi Kids!!! my goodness!!! finally 2 of them on cover together!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's been so long since i see them on cover ToT i am so happy!! i must die die try to buy that mag back!!! btw, KinKi new Cm 3rd version Enjoy~~~ I am a happy, little bit satisfied KK fan~

为啥我终是在听到Exile - Ti Amo 的时候会鼻酸呢。。。 感伤的感觉啊~ It's a sad feeling the lyrics are beautiful though, had it on my iPod.. although 80% of the songs in my iPod are KK heehee 日曜日の夜は　ベッドが広い　眠らない想い　抱いたまま朝を待つ 帰る場所がある　あなたのこと　好きになってはいけない　わかってたはじめから どれだけの想いならば　愛と呼んでいいのでしょうか？ この胸をしめつけてる　この気持ちに名前をください キスをするたびに　目を閉じてるのは　明日を見たくないから 抱きしめられると　ときめく心は　あなたをまだ信じてる 声にださないまま　『愛してる』と叫ぶの お決まりの台詞　なぞるだけの　遊びのような恋には　向いてない　昔から だれひとり傷つけない　恋を人は　愛と呼ぶけど この罪を背負いながら　生きてく覚悟は　できてる 部屋を出る時は　さよならじゃなくて　おやすみと言ってほしい 終止符くらいは　私にうたせて　それが最後のわがまま ひとりきりでは　もう　『LOVE　SONG』　うたえない もっと早く逢えたら　あなたと知り合えたら 二人の歩幅も合わせられたのに もっと長く会えたら　あなたと向き合えたら 二人は心もかざれてた キスをするたびに　目を閉じてるのは　明日を見たくないから 抱きしめられると　ときめく心は　あなたをまだ信じてる 声に出さないまま　『愛してる』 僕は弱いねと　自分からつげた　ずるい人だわ　あなたは 時計を外して　微笑んでくれる　やさしい人ね　あなたは 笑顔をくずさないで　うそを見抜きたくない EXILE - Ti Amo Lyrics: Kiyoshi Matsuo Music: Jin Nakamura, Kiyoshi Matsuo From the single "Ti Amo" (RZCD-46035, RZCD-46036) Romaji: SnakeRoot (snakeroot@mail.ru) nichiyoubi no yoru wa BEDDO ga hiroi nemuranai omoi idaita mama asa wo matsu kaer...

Apparently, i need to stop myself from sleeping late... i slept at 5am on monday morning, then 2.30am on tuesday morning... i'm too addicted to reading the stories... i can't stop or rather, i didn't want to stop... it makes me feel connected to them... *ahem* although the story's not real lah i know it's not right... but i didn't want to stop... as simple as that... i feel that time is too short, i need to know more, feel more about them... if you're wondering who the hell i'm talking about, think again who i love the most... okie, i need to go back to work, i have around 10 bloody jobs to clear now especially, since i was on mc last week... the whole of last week... fever and gastric pain/virus infection.... fever refuses to go down after torturing me for more than 4 days... now i'm considered alive... at least for now...

Alright babe~~~ New OS is up~ Leopard babe~~~ Finally, the mac at work is upgraded to the new OS~ not bad not bad which brings me my chances of getting a Macbook Pro higher... cos Macbook pro has always been on my list... just that i cannot make up my mind lah~ then i found out that my dear tsuyoshi is using macbook pro so the chances of me getting a macbook went up even higher heehee anyway, i can now finally blog~ with firefox installed boy, i love firefox BEAR~~~~~~~

喜欢是一种设麽样的心情？ 爱又是如何的？ 有谁可以真真切切的了解？ 开始的时候，会觉得很甜蜜 久了之后呢？ 谁又可以保证爱可以长长久久的？ 没有人可以。。。 爱人和被爱呢？ 你又会如何抉择？ 以前的我很渴望去谈一场恋爱。。。 现在还是。。。 只是。。 开始累了。。。 开始不再期待 或许，目前，爱着，堂本 刚这个人，是我唯一的期待，寄托 我会永远守护，堂本 刚，堂本 光一，KinKi Kids。。。 永远的和他们走下去。。。 实现300年的约定。。。 唯一的约定。。。 他的幸福，也就是我的幸福。。 所以，刚。。 你一定要幸福！ 不要问我为何 不要问我为啥要写这一篇看似怪文的日志 只是我偶尔会心血来潮罢了 近来的脑袋，想了比以前更多 有的会写下来，有的不会 有的会放上这里，有的不会 就这么简单而已 刚刚买了《人间失格》小说版 想说看看 光一和刚的第一部连续剧的原版是如何的 我知道原版和连续剧的不一样 连续剧围绕着影山留加和大场 诚他们禁忌之恋，以及诚被欺负，自杀还有留加对诚的信任。。。 在看到诚死的那一刻起，我就再也没有看完这部戏。。。 或许以后有一天，有一天吧。。我可能会鼓起勇气看完它。。。 但现阶段，我不会。。 因为，他们两个演的太好了。。 刚饰演的 诚，死了之后。。。 我真的很难看下去。。 光一饰演的留加，在诚死了之后，责备自己，觉得自己害死了诚。。后来，他疯了。。只记得诚的存在。。。 这还不够悲嘛？ 已经很悲了。。。 这是他们两个合演的三部曲的第一部。。。 第二部是 《若叶时代》 我还没看 有买 但还没开始看 因为，也不是完美的结局。。。 第三是《我们的勇气 - 未满都市》 唯一一部， 我看完的 合演的还有，岚的 - 相叶 雅纪 和 松本 潤, 宝生 舞 等。。。 本以为，他们终于有机会可以在一起。。。 但该死的编剧。。居然没有设定。。。 但这部是真的不错 所以我还Ok 下次会贴上剧照的~

ah.... so blogger is back to normal... good... if not, i dunno how i can upload pics... *baka me* i can use my phone to upload... lolx anyways, tml will be the anniversary of KinKi Kids... the 16th anniversary... since they formed KinKi Kids~~~~~~ Bear~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ lolx i think this bear~~~~~~~~ joke, only KKF and my sis will know hahahaha will upload tml... i am still on mc... will be a total of 5 bloody days.. i have tons of stuffs on hold now... i think my supervisor can't wait to kill me now...